What happens when we lay in wait? Shall I mourn my loss...regain my hope? My heart filled to the rim with mixed emotions & dreaded anticipation of what might come next... How much worse can it really get right!?!?! One more label to change what? An image blurred by a mirror that never truly showsContinue reading "The Waiting Game"
18 & My Eager Pinch Of Hope
Softly press against my body Each Breath on my skin Calling out my inner animal Remember...Let me go gently Bring me back....Feed my need Burn within me, rise up Take control - Call the shots Before the night is over Sssssh....My hunger grows Enchant me, meet me under a star-filled sky Sing to me againContinue reading "18 & My Eager Pinch Of Hope"
Two Steps Back
I've given it all, Stupidly thrown my chips in & my mind grows weak; Tired of each and every moment That I might not fit Your perfectly insane image Of who you thought I might be... The MOLD couldn't seem to hold me in Do you care? Do you regret it? Want your money back?Continue reading "Two Steps Back"
IF ONLY I COULD
I live within your glass house These cracked walls each tell their own story Barely keeping you alive They share each pain and heartache for the both of us So I quickly hover on all sides Picking up each and every piece And I can't seem to find quite enough glue to hold you allContinue reading "IF ONLY I COULD"
It’s Been A While
It seems like I have been away a lifetime, maybe a year or two. I have made amends with myself. To do what I am able to do. Some days are great days, but most can be taxing if not on myself on the kids. Two years ago we were on a path to findContinue reading "It’s Been A While"
Catatonic
Scales, rough and dull, reflecting time... ruins of who I was yesterday, but also who I am today colors bleeding free...one by one emotions trailing far behind they consume me whole taking from me... my love...my passions... stiffening limbs; compromising movements ruins of who I was yesterday...but also who I am today... memory slipping unforgivinglyContinue reading "Catatonic"
Finding Balance
It seems that I have taken the wrong turn somewhere down a dark and winding path of seven drafts left undone. There is a glimpse of light at the end of my destination. Finding balance...my ultimate focus and goal. I started this blog to share the journey of a family dealing with not one, butContinue reading "Finding Balance"
GETTING OFF OUR BUTTS!!!
Getting off our butts...yes...this has been the plan. As most of you know this can be a tremendous task when you are dealing with introverts, sensory overstimulation...injuries...mood swings...and so many other things....but this is the battle that I will not choose to give up on regardless of what my painContinue reading "GETTING OFF OUR BUTTS!!!"
;SURVIVOR
Have I ever been Lost... Where do I end and you begin? The emptiness I drown within me Goes on and on...swing me to and from.... Have I ever been found? The winding clock rings a bit too late Stumbling; I catch my fall Push my face down below Shadows line the frame of whoContinue reading ";SURVIVOR"
Through the Darkness
Through the Darkness Drowning in all that is you...malicious upbringing malevolent cooing of a strange butterflied wing child here within your concealed curtains those of which appear to be normal yes...the color shame engulfs her lament dancing the day away down those dreaded stairs she runs like a tiny little soldier without a home she forgets often...whyContinue reading "Through the Darkness"
Life, one moment at a time... 